Looking Back

Does this sweater look familiar to you? If you've been reading my blog for a while, you may recognize it from the post titled "A Little Daydreaming Never Hurt Anybody". Here is an excerpt:

"I found the cutest red ribbed sweater. I couldn't resist taking it off the rack, carressing the soft cables, and imagining a baby girl in it. A sweet little bundle of cuddly softness. I could almost smell that new baby smell that I love so much. I could almost feel the warm softness of her baby skin against mine. I imagined the peacefullness of nursing her at night, the moonlight falling on her cute little face. . . I was in baby hunger heaven.
I was suddenly jolted out of my heaven with a high-pitched scream from my toddler- my boys were fighting- again!! In no time at all, my thoughts switched from cuddly softness to red-faced screaming baby. From sweet baby smell to the smell of baby puke that's been on my shoulder for two days because I haven't had a chance to shower. From peacefullness to absolute exhaustion and sleep-deprivation.
My baby hunger heaven didn't last long. I collected my now crying kids and dashed away from the baby clothes as quickly as I could without looking back! Another baby? Now? Are you kidding me!?! I made a mental note to stay away from the baby girl clothes for a while.
But sometimes I think back to that sweater . . . and once again imagine my little bundle of sweetness. Maybe not any time soon, but someday. Someday."

I find it ironic that I was pregnant when I wrote that (but of course, I didn't know it). It turns out my 'someday' came sooner than I had expected. My little bundle of sweetness is now almost five months old, and though she has been red in the face from screaming on more than one occasion, her puke has become a permanent part of my wardrobe, I've had less sleep in the past five months than I used to get in one night, and my life is generally chaotic, I wouldn't trade it for the world. It is all worth it when I see her smile. She absolutely lights up my life.

As for the sweater, it's from last year's line, so I wasn't able to buy it, but I got what I wanted: a sweet baby girl.